21st May 2026

Finished my last exam. Mediocre performance. I cannot get myself to care. Everything’s over now. Took the metro with my classmate. What an incredibly challenging academic year. We are exhausted. And proud of making it until the end. "How are you going to celebrate?" With a nap. A long nap. No alarm, no imperatives, no more homework. I just want to chill and get ready for my summer plans. Needed to share my excitement. Called boyfriend. He bought me donuts. Sent a message to best friend to ask her to hang out when I'll return to my hometown. Called mother.

"You finished your last exam?"
"Yes, no more exams left now!"
"You don't have any academic matters to deal with? Are you sure?"
"Yes, yes, yes!"
"Well, I have something to tell you."

Not a single day after my liberation. Not even forty fucking minutes in.
All the excitement is gone. Already thinking about cancelling my plans. Everything seems futile now. Spent hours staring at the Void. Feeling so empty I can’t even cry. Is there anything I can do. No there isn’t. Maybe a miracle could help. Is there any way I can provoke a miracle.

Endless homework made me miserable because I didn’t know the alternative was endless problems. No summer break this year for me. Life do be like dat.